The days we used to chat all night
Are now replaced with useless fights
The promises that you have made
Not once have they been taken place.

Your words, your actions, were all just lies
To get me to stay by your side
Although I know that you love her
I stayed by you, remained sincere.

Knowing that, you used me
For times when you get lonely
Everything changed after you changed
Now I have nothing left to say.

I'm never coming back.
There's no hope. No more sparks.
Or there wast even any from the start.
I imagined everything. I thought it was real.

The joke's on me huh?
Even now, you're still playing with me.
Go away. I never want to see you ever again.




I wish I meant it when I said "I hate you".

Today, I talked to her.
Not to pick a fight or anything because I'm a civilised person (LOL).
I don't wanna fight. It's not her fault.

I talked to her to cheer her up.
Who knows? She will appreciate her life more after getting to know a little of mine.
I felt relieved actually. I talked to her in a peaceful manner.
Which was good. Because that shows how matured I am! :DD

Now that I've talked to her. Somewhat analyse her personality, I can let him go.
He can love her for all he wants.
I'm not going to be jealous. But if he does call me and give me false hope, I'mma kill him. LOL.

Now all that's left to be done is get some fresh air & come back as a new me.
I'll be happier than ever, smiling wider than ever & laughing more than ever.
I'll make my comeback. Watch me.

Let's hope that I can find me some hotties to forget my feelings aight? ;)
What? Letting go and forgetting is totally different stuff ok? Heh. Bye~

August 29th 2011

You are one fucked up jerk I've ever met in my whole life.
When I bothered wasting money to call you, you don't talk.
You only start to talk when I threaten to hang up. Wtf?
Don't blame me if I really hang up. You deserved it.
I wanted to fake the hang up at first BUT, you had to fucking call me "Cheryl".
That's the last straw bitch. You're a fucking manwhore.
Slut, you can just fuck off because I had it with you.
You called me, talked, stfu-ed, called me someone I'm not and fucking blamed it on me.
Manslut, I hope you die while you fuck those sluts and break your dick off.
You turned me into this. Now I hope you burn and die. FUCK YOU.

August 29th 2011.

Well today's really boring.
I'm fasting today since my period's over.
Wahh, bored + hunger = torture!
LOL. Stupid presidential election.
If it wasn't for that, there would be band practice, which means I would be leas bored!
I want to go out, but I got no cash.
Plus, I don't think my dad would allow me to.
So many people going to Bugis!
I'm gonna visit there again with Dyanah after fasting month, hopefully.
But I just wanna go with her.
I mean, I'm comfortable going with just her.
Mehhh. I'm leaving for Indonesia on Wednesday. Gonna miss my friends ><
Before that, I'll taste Joie's brownies :D
Hehe, I can't reject food! MUAHAHAHA
I'm boreddd. Goodness, gracious, me!
Okay, random.

August 28th 2011

Bye.

I was chosen to replace Kausalya in N SQUARED performance for Teachers' Day and I just screwed it up like no mother.
I thought that my trip back to Indonesia was on the 2nd of September so I accepted the offer.
Today, the second day we practiced like mad for it, was the day I found out that I'm going back to Indonesia on the 31st August.
How am I gonna face them now?
They've been so good to me these past few days, laughing and teaching me stuff.
I have to abandon them too?
Oh noo. I shouldn't have said yes in the first place. I was just so excited to join a dance group that I didn't check my schedule properly.
Screw me. I suck like urgh.
As each day passes by, I hate myself more and more.

August 25th 2011

Daddy's sick today ):
He was puking all the way since he went home.
I hope he's alright... He looked really pale & was sweating a lot.
I'm getting scared. I don't wanna lose dad.
I know I fight with him a lot but that's just because I love him.
Oh dear, I hope it's nothing serious. Please God, it's nothing serious, right?
Please tell me I'm right.

Dad's resting on his bed now.
He looks so weak. What happened?
/sigh/

I hate this depressing topic.
Let's change it.

So today I got my results for the audition.
Guess what? I PASSED. I was selected for callbacks.
But I didn't go, we had to pay at least a minimum of $2500 just for the course.
It's alright. There's always another chance.
Dyanah went with her dad for enquiries.
After that her dad will consider letting her go.
I hope she does. It's a rare opportunity.
Me? I'm gonna do a web show. Someday.
Haha, I don't know how to work it out ><

Anyways, I now remember my YouTube account so I think I'll be doing song covers an posting them there.
Support me okay? Heehee.

Ciaoooooo :)


Aug 22nd 2011